Flow of Life

I don't know. I've been through this freakin' life almost 15 years. I just feel, life is a piece of stupid stage.


Beginning.
It's scary. When i see my life with this glasses called 'beginning', i just feel i'm not sure i can through this. Here, I make a looot of mistake. I called it, learning experience. Sometimes, when it's like a golden chance, i just fall into a rabbit hole. That's not a right things, it's a trap. But you know? Without 'beginning' i'm nothing. Why? Let's see in 'middle'.

Middle.
It's kinda tiring of being a stupid kid. I got a lesson. Lesson which i dont get it from school. I called it experience. Slowly but sure, I take step by step, 'till finally i got the top. I'm delight. World is like in my arm. What? Everything I want, I got it! It's like piece of cake. Come on! But, am i finished already?

Ending.
In fact, 'middle' is the 'real' rabbit hole! Really, like seriously. I just forgot who i am. I do every single thing recklessly. I underestimate everything. You know what? Shame on myself. I'm like a Bulldog in Tom&Jerry, they give me a bone, throw it away, and i'll catch it. Just like that. SHAME. The point is, Ending is about regret. Realizing my fool-ness. Once again the 'real' fool-ness.

And guess what? After the ending, what will i do? Guess! Beginning? Yea, you're right. I'm gonna back to the beginning! Learn everything, made a new mistake, having fun, forgot my self, fall down, realize, and back again. And sadly, that's just how it works, eh?

Look. Ppl say that when you're grow up, you'll know what's wrong&right. But the fact? You know it. Yea, you know it's wrong. But you'll keep on doing it, right? Even children is smarter than me.

I get it. But i'm not strong enough to say "no"