that fear.

"Hey just sleep, I will be right there, right next to you, when you wake up tomorrow. I promise I won't go anywhere." He whispered to my ear.

But there’s this thing in life where nothing’s certain except death. So do promises. Promises are only promises, but who can guarantee that? 

What if 5 minutes after, there’s an earth quake that killed us both?

What if you got a heart attack and all I have is your dead body?

What if I got a heart attack?

What if God just doesn’t let us to be together?

What-if.

You might feel this, when you met someone and you started to believe in true love, when you decided to put your half self, in someone else’s soul. All you can do is hope. You bet on that. You just bet, hoping that you didn’t bet on the wrong person. But it was always 50 - 50 percent chances. Nothing’s certain. And this, people change.

Do you know that I trust you so much? 

Do you think that I never believe in your words?

It’s just.. I’m scared as hell about the idea of losing you. It’s not just it’s unbearable, it’s unimaginable. I just can’t figure it out how to live while I’m losing my half soul. It’s not that I don’t trust you, I just keep telling my self that we’re just a normal human being, we are mortals. Or maybe one day you just can't love me anymore. This universe has 100% power to do anything, and all we can do is to hope.

Because you are my half soul, you truly are.

p.s. it’s 2 a.m. in the morning, and I can’t sleep. Am afraid that what-if today was the last day I could see you.